Tuesday September 21st, 2021
I know it’s been quite a while, almost two months! But I just wanted to check in to let everyone know I’m still alive. I haven’t been successful with continuing to be sober after drinking again in July, which is why I haven’t posted since then. Not really quite sure what to write. I also don’t want to trigger anyone who is sober and follows me. I won’t be offended if you decide to unfollow.
Where I’m at with drinking is that the hubby and I went on a long road trip to the East Coast for most of August and I continued to drink during that trip. My goal was to not overdo it, and I think I succeeded in that goal. We would go out for a nice dinner, eat some great seafood, and I’d have maybe 3 glasses of wine with the meal. We also took some days off of drinking here and there, which was another goal. Not to drink every, single day.
Since we’ve been back home I’ve been trying to focus on drinking only on occasions like having a few glasses of wine when we go out for dinner. Rather than sitting on the couch with a bottle of wine to myself on a Sunday evening. That’s been going fairly well except for this past week when we went out for dinner twice and drank, and had a friend over for dinner and drank. That’s what I need to avoid because it makes me feel like garbage when I don’t have enough non-drinking days in my week.
The good news is that since I’ve taken long chunks of time off drinking in the past two years, I know how much better I feel when I don’t drink and I prefer that feeling. After drinking 3 out of 7 days last week and feeling like absolute garbage by Sunday night, I am eager to avoid drinking this week and get back to feeling good again. We’ll see how this new plan goes. I imagine I might still take chunks of time off drinking because it acts as a re-set and it’s a good reminder of how much better I feel without alcohol in my body.